my xanga experience:
when I was 16 I joined and was in all of these grunge blogrings. I discovered the riot grrl movement and became interested in feminism.
Sometime that year I developed an eating disorder and spent the next two years writing my intakes, my triggers, my exercise regimen. I quoted Fiona Apple and Sylvia Plath a lot. I can still remember this by heart “I lean to you, numb as a fossil, tell me I’m here”. I remember Chris and his girlfriend, Lindsay found my old blog and would bully me relentlessly about it and show it to everyone. Those jerks.
When I was like, 17-18 I discovered cocaine and thought I was the smartest, self aware person who ever lived. I’d always post about these theories I made up my head and I thought I was so free. I thought I was so glamorous for doing drugs, but in reality it was kind of gross.
When I was 19 I decided to turn over a new leaf and adopted a very clean hippie lifestyle. I quit using drugs, alcohol, and cut down on my caffeine and stopped taking medicine when I got sick. I also became a vegetarian and later a vegan. I would always write about vegetarianism news, and would post pictures that said silly things like “meat’s no treat” and “Kentucky Fried Cruelty” and “The Only Arms We Need” (with a picture of cartoon kids hugging).
That year I started dating Bill and would always write about distance making the heart grow fonder and all the things we were going to do when and if he came back from Iraq.
Bill got out of the army when I was twenty. The next two years had entries about fights, make ups, and a lot of freak outs.
I started using Xanga more when I turned 22. Me and Bill eventually split. I went through a period where I felt very empowered and free and I would preach a lot. I discovered a new love, weed and had these friends with benefits and would write these like 15 paragraph entries about using ecstasy. I would post all of these pulses when I was really stoned. I read them now and I think they’re the funniest things I’ve ever seen.
At 23 I started making actual friends on Xanga. I’ve met a handful of really awesome people and consider some my closest friends. This continued on. When I do post, it’s usually about my weekend adventures and some success stories from graduate school.
Crazy growing up on xanga.
Edit: I just realized I’m going to come back from Cuba and want to blog all about it, but I won’t be able to